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• Today I woke up and promptly burst into tears. I hadn't cried that hard in months. I don't remember the dream I had before I woke up but it must have been pretty devastating to warrant those tears. I then sank deeper into the comforter and lulled myself to sleep.
• These recent months have been pretty weird (my vocabulary fails me during late hours) for me. I can be happy, as I always try to find a reason to be, but then this melancholic mood attacks and I stray to somber thoughts and complicated feelings, and my chest hurts, though it feels hollow. 
• I can't figure myself out.